hai..i don't even knw how the hell should i begin. it all started with this sickening com. spend the whole afternoon to reformat. but found out the norton was'nt working. and i kept installin installing and it does'nt work out. ok fine..and it says i could'nt locate one of the files. and was getting tensed up as i search high and low in the com. still could'nt find it. and had to hurry like a race against time to help bro as he gonna finish up his project. i try my very best to find it..i found ways to it..but was fucking hell annoyed by the disturbance from my bro and his gf. i was so fed up..i could'nt concentrate at all. was complaining to dear and she kept telling me to lax lax..*splash* me do it slowly. but i jus could'nt do it. they are far too much. i tryin my best to help my brother and he is down there having fun and would'nt even bother to help me at all!!

in the end..i went pass my limit. blast to dear. and even caplock. it was damn fuckin rude to that to a girl more worse ur gf. =.= but i was really really very furious. boiling. i can't stand it anymore. in the room, it's the same wat i said previously. and outside the living room. mum and sis naggin me to do my work. feelin so stress up. and i msg dear so much like a basturb. hai..a screw jus went loose in my head. i did'nt mean to do it..but it maybe a moment of anguish. i was feeling so fucked up and went back to my room. starred at my work. totally no more mood to do it. my mind was filled with 3 words " I'm a basturb" she's my gf..one i should cherish loads and yet i treat her like a fa xie tong. wth..am i doing? hai..regret so much after that. lie on the bed and kept thinking of my foolish act. it was really really dumb of me. i had never thought of the outcome and scold whenever i wan.

hai............................................................till now i havent even finish up my work and it had to be handed up by tml. no use too late. leave it tml and see how. dear..i'm very very very sorry. really regret wat i did jus now. guess i was really too much jus now. even make u angry. was lucky that u did'nt ji chou and u are a forgiving person. *aHem* anyway, really sorry. although it has already passed but it was my fault. hai..i was lucky this time. but wat if next time i make u angry again..it seems like a million sorry would'nt be any help..

hmm..todae second dae of sch liao. life in schooling still was'nt bad bah i guess. but was damn freaking boring lor. hahahax..

came to sch..went to postbox to post letters and saw 29 passed. hahahax..faster bio bio got dear anot. she was there indeed..! wooh..!!!! hahahax..went to cross the road as quickly as possible fo catch up with her. hehehe. fortunately, she waited for me outside the side gate. hahaax..went to sch together. put our bags and fool around at water-cooler. =x childish! lol..! after that do homework in class..and was surprise that dear dare to come in sia!!! hahahaha..!!! like first time so willing to come in like that. hahaha..!! tok some craps..and she left. hmm, sian lo..start of the day mus see cheng's face. =.= everything was going well bah. except when chi teacher say mus see in triples..i see kenneth..straight away my mind was like " wtf! no way will i sit with him!" faster go ask jasmin and eunice ask ask can sit with them bo. hahaha..!!! they on then PHEW =.=''' but in the end the seating arrangement change and i remain the same at the front. phew.. =.='''

nothing special happen in sch bah. was very boring very very i mus said. i was like totally anti-social. hahaha..!!! can't believe sia. i hardly spoke more than20 sentences during lesson time. hahaha..!!! cool seh..absoulute guai kia. hahha! a-maths was very blur at the start coz cher start new topic..i gong gong. but manage to wake up after that. then chiong chiong fortunately it was quite easy and manage to understand.

after sch..went to uncle louis makan with dear..pei her to bus-stop. then.. HOME SWEET HOME!study a while and went to sleep like a JU ZHU HOR! =x at nite..was shocked that dear was freaking fuck ta lucky! hahahaha!!! don't wanna elaborate later she kenna robbed. ooops! see ya

Woh..so fast and it was the start of sch. hmm..first day of sch was rather boring..very boring. but bio really interest me lots. hahahax.

wake up early early..call deardear as usual. i was startled to hear an enthu voice..! hahaha..hello till so cheerful. HEHE..then i happy happy go back to slp. =x wake up again..gong gong tai tai. forget all my preparation before going to sch. lol..messed up. then 7 like that leave sch. schooling as usual lor..timetable change nia. then my side all join tables..pair up.i alone. sian..but also good lar..mus concentrate..i need to score in the final year!!! I wanna have schlorship..do myself proud. =)

after sch..went to uncle louis makan..before that was shootin at bball court. hahahahax. reach le..dear playing with her hp..? lol..then never notice. aiya..sian. then nvm..go order. put down. look back never see me. ok nvm..eat eat half way LOOK BACK..! never saw me again. eat eat finishing. LOOK BACK!!! still never saw me. then aiya.sad. then she bought ice-cream eat eat a while..go liao. then yd and hy and eh down there discuss wanna pong teng mah..then sian..pong teng then i go lor..catch up with dear..=x

aiya..stupid neilson di siao me. ask me maths qn. my mind nw shut down from work liao. i jus now doing work don't wanna ask. i gonna go. hope for a fun day tml. =p byex

is this wat i expect throughout the day..? am i? am i the one who cause all this. haix..rite nw i only i knw I SUCK..!

a memorial day turn to be my fuck ta dae. firstly, have to go and train in the fuckin hot sun despite the match this morning. ok fine..i go. but i did'nt expect all my good friends to pong teng and pang seh me without telllin me where they going. i'm really tired at that time. really really tired..

train and train..and my shootin is going nowhere and ok..screwed up. after that injured and suffer a bleedin toe. it was fuckin pain and i could hardly do anything. i get some break after that was force to train. what the fuck is this?! hey bloody coach..u bleed so much so wat...i bleedin till my socks also kenna and i could hardly run and u wan me to train. Ok fine! i train..it was freakin pain but i hold on. but in the end humilated. "a good def but poor attacking!" hey fuckin basturb..it's because of my toe or i will have whack them off..!

after training..have to bring fuckin hell boy..to my home to let him see my uni. wazz prob man. i respect u as a attitude teacher and i don't wanna argue with u. fine i bring and i have to meet dear after dat..and i have to go up and down up and down. and also afraid of been scolded. and have to quicken my pace and left dear behind. wtf am i doing..?! and also afraid of this and that. i'm fuckin sissy. oh damn fuck..! rush home after that. i feel so useless. a simple job of accompany a gf to bus-stop or buy foods i can't even accomplished. an upside down basturb am i..? precisely..and end up making her pissed off because of a bitch.

once a bitch always a bitch. i can't believe that a bitch like celine tan ru ping can actually mock at her friend when she was all alone. u think it is fun? u better get some fuckin fick up ur pussy and be fucked off by men and i will be down there laughin at u. why mus u be so bitchy..is it inherit..? can't be. does Jesus teaches u dat..? i doubt. no matter..u will remain IN MY HEART! - as a bitch of the world.

Woh..everything seems passing very fast. and todae is 24..!! *cheers* which is me and darling mantou..6 months anniversery? HEHE...but the sad thing was i can't go out with dear todae. =( got training at 4. so sorry..!! no matter wad, todae will still be a special dae for you and me and i will never forget this date.

well, 6 months le. all along was very glad to have u to accompany me. u make my life beautiful eh.? HEhe..wanna thank you for everything. wat u did for me words simply can't express. i'm not exageratting, guys. u guys never knw how wonderful it is yeah..? maybe because we get along really very well and share the same thoughts eh..? hahahahax..

really thank you for ur treats at times. so sorry i don't knw hw to say personally to you. coz i shy lar. hehe..but deep in my heart i'm very hmm..happy happy..! yeah..mus admit i am quite useless some little things also need u to treat me. but recently no money le. hehe..but i promise u precious thing is yet to come. eh..hope i can have enough to buy one valuable and memorial item for you wor. i will try my best..hehe.

hmm, don't knw wat to say le. jus wanna thank you lots and lots. everytime go out with me then left ur less out le. hehehe..so pai seh. =) love ya dear. u rocks my world. lastly, don't think too much k..? life goes on..live it to ur fullest and don't regret it. do wat u think u should do. don't be easily influenced wor. and for sch reopening. mus work hard kk..? mus buck up in ur studies..i really hope u can perform well. need help jus call me..don't hestitate. don't always think it is impossible. because impossible is nothing. don't have to win others to see how well u do..wat u should do is to win ur ownself..chao yua zi ji. jus like initial D eh..? hehe..stop here le. LoVE you!

Happy 6th month! A long journery of love.

Are u tryin to issue me a challenge of my future prospect..? whether how far can i get..? Well, let me tell u this..i accept ur challenge. You knw wat..? i don't have to go to a stupid lib and i will develop like a hot prospect and let u see. let u eat back ur words.

As a mother, u should never doubt ur son ability. Moreover, never compare to his cousins. ur son has his own potential and talent - his specialise. so all the more you should based on this and bring him up. let him has great exposure to it..so he can do well in that particular area. but u are not..? u are comparing..comparing an apple to a pear. u love comparing with my cousin..? abopt him..and dumb me off. i don't give a damn bout it. because in the near future u shall regret ur actions. ur really foolish actions.

you should give him SOME freedom to let him express himself.
haix..

so am i a guai kia todae..? hahahax..whole dae stuck at home bah. woke up around 1 and troat still pain. and my back from right change to left pain. wth.. =.= had my lunch..and help mum run errands as she was sick.

the whole afternoon was damn boring bah. did nothing but online. fortunately dear was online to pei me. hahahax..around evening went to cs with dear a while. go other server. hahahax..play play play but different team and i killed her. >_< sorry..!!! hehehe...and got quite a nice frags. hahahahax..anyway, dear came and meet me at bbt bah. wahahahax..thanks for coming wor. a while later she went home to eat her FRIED OYSTER. HOR?! hahahahax..

had my dinner flip through the newspaper and found some berserk taoism try to open durians using hands and heads..? lamer sia. got knife for you to open wanna hao lian use hands and heads. next time i use my bird and rip open for you to eat ar..then u knw whose the real boss out there. =x jk jk. hahahahax..!!! watch chal8 and tokin about shoppin stuff bah. tok about bikini..wah lao, the model so slut like that sia. bth..then the MOK damn funny. hahahaha..but really lor, wah lao ask her host this kind of fashion stuff. at least find someone more chio mah. hahahahax..more viewers will be enthu. =p lol...then keep toking about char bor's stuff. no guys one.wah liew..only char bor knw hw to shop meh~ sexism! =x

ah~ whole dae at home is so freaking bored. pathetic little boiboi. ahaha..hope for a better and more entertain tomorrow. =)

damn..sore troat from that stupid slide up..! hahahhax..todae was one of the fun days during my June hols bah. never enjoy so much.but have to pay a price for that lor. back pain troat sore. -.-'''

woke up quite early todae..receive hy's msg say he wanna call mk they all to go..then he go..bloody hell. stop ur craps lar pls. can u ever have a one on one date...? don't you find it more romantic. you may find we are still young don't too much of that. but have u ever though that been in love is the most wonderful thing you can ever had..? we are young on the way many things will happen to break it apart..so all the more you should cherish the time u had with ur dear right now..and make this love works like magic. make her feel as if she is the most luckiest woman in the world. wat u are thinkin rite now is far too ambitious. future future future..how are you going to think about the future when u are already nt thinkin about present..? give it some thought dube. wake up...

ok enough of that..had my breakfast with a sore troat. watch nba final. hahahax..nearly forget to bathe..faster bathe and walk slowly to the bus-stop to board the same bus as dear. the bus came and we di li siao siao each other on the bus. omG..was so so so happy to see her. coz yesterdae did'nt see at all. =x

we reached and the weather was cold. walk walk walk..and top up the funkey.damn those people in front. make the pple queuing up and the "cashier" frustrated. lame lor..ask so much..jus top-up the funkey and f-O lar. hahahahax..*evil evil* faster chiong to the locker room..tuo diao tuo diao..and went to the shiok river. hahahax..after a round..went to wave pool i guess..?? nah..i play so much things till i forget wat i did..lol.!! went to u-larlar, sky-riders, yakult, waterworks, slide up, tsunami and jacuzzi..!!! ahahax...

many things happen along these rides. first, u-larlar. lol..!!! everything was fine..then at the last part. got one guy..askin for two more people. and we were like.."hmm" then told dear..two more leh..wanna go anot..then we wait wait wait..and kept lookin at that guy..and that guy suddenly call up to us : " ni men liang ke, wo ji de ni men. hai bu yao kuai dian ju shou. kuai dian guo lai." then me and dear : "#$%#$^#$%#$ -..-''' malu sia. " took bout 3 to 4 rides on the u-larlar. after that came the waterworks. dear took off her specs and gave me. then wah lao..coz the ride was a bit bumpy..and the water keep rushin at you. so whenever i go down a while..mus touch my pocket and make sure her specs is still with me. lol..then machiam dancing ma-ke-ray-na =x

next is slide-up. dear was so lovely. hahahahax..was very very scared when i'm at the top. as if i'm gonna pee anytime..sat down..kept quiet. then dear..."muack muack" hahahaha..then HEHE. but that damn bloody assistant..down there.."wanna go down already still wanna kiss" lol. cannot meh..she givin me courage mah. hahahaha..!!! went for 3 rides for that bah. went again and again. till the person.."expert already rite..? knw wat to do already ar..?" -..-'''

another fun thing is sky-riders. dear so di di siao siao. chiong so fast..then i brake. then i cycle..she brake. $%#$^~$^^$%%%$#%$#%!# bth. di siao each other. lol..still childish. after that the jacuzzi. bth..we were *aheming* one kid saw it and said : " bu yao kan nan bian. da men zai *******************" wth...

well, todae was damn freaking fun man..!!! hahahaha..di siao so much pple. lifeeguard also di siao. hahahahax..!!! after www, took bus home and pei dear go uncle louis makan and went home.

*yawnx* so tired. dear, thanks for ur companion wor..! love you lots..! muackx..how's was the sleep on the bus eh? HAhax..

*yawnx* so bored..completely nothing to do at all right now. hai..pathetic sia. whole day at home doing nothing. woke up in the noon...eat fried rice. ahahaha..so small serving =( did'nt really fill my stomach seh. did some a-maths after my lunch..do do do..~ sian ji bua. suddenly recall i have to go mk hse take ps2. =p

the weather damn hot sia..in the noon..faster went to mk hse after bathing. go there chill down and watch him play world of warcraft.. -.-''' did'nt understand a single shit. hahahaa..say do wat quest don't even knw wat quest.. =x somemore still got wat magic shoot here and there..but i mus say that the game's graphic was perfect sia. damn chio..!!! wOoo..if only i knw how to play warcraft..hahaha but also a bad thing..if knw how to play that..means knw how to play D.O.T.A = goner..! hahahaha..later become neil..play and play and play..end up..mid year both maths failed. hahahaax..also no time pei dear..? hahahaha..end up like jb..HAHAHAHAHa..that will be worse come to worse..

borrow ps2 from him..thought can come home and play..but can't wth..don't knw wass wrong sia. SIAN JI BUa..!!! buay song lo..but aiya..bo bian..on the com and play cs. play a while nia..coz mood. =X my frag all like shit. lol..jus nw play cs:source at mk hse. wah kaox..addicted to source lor..the graphic damn damn damn fuckin chio. bth..!!! but aiya..fat hope lar..no money to buy one..hahahax. wanan buy so much things too. but the no.10 shirt is damn nice..hope can get it someday. =p 10 seh..!!! =x

todae was rather a lonely day bah. dear went out..hmm..friends went to zhiwei hse. hahahax..mus be doing some crap stuffs one lar..confirm is di di siao siao pple. -.-''' dear eat sakae sia..*eat chicken* guess go and have my dinner early bah.

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woH..todae went out with my dear. hehe..at first wan to go to PP..but in the end went to PS. hahahax..before that was deciding went to go to..hahax..*headache headache* almost everywhere also went to jalan jalan before le. lol...dear, xiao zhu sia...so late then wake up. tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk..forget to eat medicine le lar..miss the time..tml remember to eat wor..! hahahax..

took mrt there..and as usual. di di siao siao each other on the mrt. hahahax..bth, recently everytime disturb each other on the mrt. lol..childish..? nah..it's lovely. HEHe..=x hmm, reach ps..suay suay gastric pain. wah piang..then dear treat me KFC. hahahax..thank you so much. sorry eh..everytime go out..u will treat me things one. hahahax..thank you thank you. then when eating..one girl no table manners. bloody hell..keep staring at our chickens. ass sia. godge out ur eye balls man! then so spoilt lor..wah kaox..bth.

after that went to Yamaha..dear bought her flute stand. hahahax..see her blog. so happy to buy her flute stand. hahahahax..Went to John little and pei dear see BRA. hahahahahaha..a very fun experience..too bad there is no hands-on. lol!!! will suay one..hahahaha..better not bah. lol..then the T-shirt bra..so ex. guy's boxer also not so ex le. hahaha...queensway sell got cartoon cartoon one.$10 nia. that one nothing only got nice texture..$80 le. =O

went to take a look at watch shop too. tryin to see if dear's favourite GUESS design there mah..too bad to no avail. my feet end up kenna stepped by the salesman. *poopoo* bought some breads at breadtalk..and went home lo. so sorry eh..never pei u home..and forget pass u the bread..up till now it is still nt eaten. lol...coz i don't know how to eat CHEESE..HEE.

hmm..guess end here le bah..nite nothing much to tok about. lol..coz it's B.O.R.I.N.G!

right now in my mind..jus two words : ' Fucked Up' i jus wanna vent out..but could'nt. my brain is boiling everywhere is boiling. i'm really have a very very bad dae..all started with bball. i was really fuckin hell not my usual self. i could'nt perform. flared up. yeah, that's it.

i play in a match..play to win. i never play to lose. my team is falling..i have the urge to turn things right end up doing it in the wrong way. hungry for points and confidence builing up..but jus fall rite down..when teammates refuses to let me have the chance to perform. yeah, true they did pass to me. but at the wrong timee. i was completely free and they ignore my presence. fucking pissed. i was playin nowhere..they got the ball go for their own. i gt nothin to say.

second quarter..during the break. quarell with mr tan. i was damn fucked up by that time. i could'nt accept the fact would'nt give me a chance to show. i wanna perform..i wanna do anything that can make the team wins. i was totally moodless by second quarter. i was playing 'cold' basketball. fine! don't get the ball..i don't get..i let others perform. let me be the clown in the squard. and yes..i am the biggest fool throughout the match. being a laughing stock for some silly actions. running here and there..but could'nt get the ball. then i realised i was jus A PEANUT in the team. everyone is better than me. i'm jus a small peanut. anytime be crushed down. yes...i'm the weakest link. in the national..i'm a already a fool..right now in sch team..i'm the same.

was my mum right when she says..ta qiu bu yao ta dao jiang bing ming...?

a match is jus like a battle. you lose, means u are weak...not up to enemy's match. u win means u are strong. nobody like losing matches jus like war. which country would be happy to see their own country fallen to the opponent's hand. we treat opponent like enemy. we gonna shoot them down. win them..break them apart. we have to set aside our mr nice guy side. be a man..stand out. not for the country but for the sch. we gonna be tough and fight..like we never fight b4. whack the enemies down..show them our power..but not chickening around.

i knw we can do it. we definitely will. maybe i'm jus thinkin too much. i'm born with a victor's mind.

i'm gonna try my best to stop flaring as it will nt do either parties any good..but harm. i wanna train. to be the best. and lead the best underdogs to tournament and bring glory. we will stand out for dunman and win every matches we played. next year will be my last year. i don't wanna leave the sch basketball empty-handed. i wanna be my bro..although i can't single-handedly bring opponents down. but i wil guide..i wan everyone to stop seeing dunman as a peanut team.

i...WANNA win.

woh..!!!todae was great bah..!!! hahahaha..!!! so shuang..tution was ok-ok lor. ask a-maths ask and ask and ask..till headache..then slp. hehe..but tutor heck care. lol..!! after tution...went to have lunch with aunties and mum..then go home faster wash up and go mit dear. hahahahax..go bowling..wOoO..!!! spend $12 on it bah. but aiya..nvm lor. each play 3 games. damn lor!!! the lane is freaking lousy shit sia..!!! go put the kids thing... $%@#$%$#% first two games were damn sucky bah. maybe warm-up games bah..haha..last game hot ar. 134..!!! wOoOoO..damn song. anyway saw mr cheng also bah. hahahax..he go buy one bowling package sia. siao siao..hmm, bowl so lousy go buy own ball..bOo bOo..!!! after bowl..went to jalan jalan.

can't believe me and dear siao all the way to city hall. lol!!!! damn damn damn fuckin crazy sia. wOoPS! HEHE but it was damn damn funny and freakin fun.di di siao siao here and there. lol.. end here le bah..byex dear..muackx love you!!!!

todae was damn boring for me!!!! woke up at about 12.40pm bah. hahahax..damn shuang! ahahahax..coz no training, can slp like pig? =x get up..walk around and watch cartoon. cause bo bian ar..those two little kids wanna watch. change the channel a while also cannot..later cry i song tio. hahahahx..

watch watch a while..then went to eat my...lunch or breakfast ar?should be lunch. hahahax..then went to watch cartoon again >_< watch batman begins. don't knw why..bu zi bu jue..i fuckin sian le. play ps2..play play play play. disc spoilt..my mission cannot carry on. sian diao..then change game lor..and play and play and play again. cannot tahan anymore..go on com and play cs with yd. play play play..then find out my awp skills is dropping like shit. hahahax..pathetic..then sian diao..km ask me wanna go sentosa. stupid sia. if i really can go i already go liao lo..still wait for him to ask. hong yu also. lol.

It's been a long time since i update blog le hor. hahahax..let's start with my mid year bah!!! Yeah..!!! was glad that i manage to clinich 2nd in class bah. but the results was'nt much satisfactory. mus work harder for my final year. i mus get a schlorship..!!!i mus!!!i gonna keep trying. =)

nowadays training very early le. sian half lor..7.30am. but dear more jia lat. todae wake up so early. sorry wor..never give u morning call.hahahax..i cannot wake up. HEhe..hmm, see dear's blog like seems so fucked up. are you ok? mus tell me leh..if nt i don't knw..althought i knw i read u like a book =p hahahax..well, jus try to lax ar..jus like those pple arrogant lo. they are only making their life harder. they are making pple to hate them more. they scold scold scold may be good or bad. but to me..it's bad lor. they are nt settin a gd example still wanna punish pple. jus lax and chill bah. don't think too much..